"I ain't working here anymore""J.Paycheck's"big hit back in the seventies.This brings me to the subject of "Choices"!The fact that i am now facing down my 62nd birthday reminds me of the "Choices" that have brought me to this wonderful country of Thailand.My lifetime has been filled with so many "Choices"of which i am now either enjoying or paying back my "Karma"in ways i would rather not deal with(The bad ones!)!I am guilty of many bad choices in life and regret them every time i revisit them in my mind.I have loved many with all my heart,and hurt as many during my lifetime.My choices have helped many,and hurt others.This is not a good or bad thing,but just my life and my need to express my feelings on just"How in Hell did I end up here?".My life is no more special than any other human being,just my life and my choices.This brings me to the point of this post,choices our mine to make,win or lose.I, like many who have just picked up and moved away from family & friends and comfort zones live now with my "Choices".I have family who think i am a crazy old man.Family & advisers have thrown up their collective hands and declared me a "Lost Cause".I wish to thank them for their concerns ,support or lack of(for some family members) support,as this "IS" my "Choice".I want to live & die on my own terms.My dreams our mine,they our not the property of others who think they know what is best.I have lived my whole life by one simple rule"If it feels Good,then go for it"!The time to regret and wallow away in self pity over broken dreams our in my rear view mirror,this dream is mine.Luckkyybuddha999
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