How do you know when things our going "south" in your marriage,retirement or health?The "Deception" part,is usually of your own refusal to be 'Honest with yourself" in most cases!Living in Thailand,i have had many opportunity's to 'Deceive myself" on many fronts.I am "Guilty" as sin!Life is full of opportunities to lie,especially if the "Truth" is too hard to accept.I am posting this little rambling of lying,not because i am remorseful of my less than stellar record in the above mentioned areas,but because it is a 'Mainstay of self deception"!Living in a Thai home,full of Thai people,including my wife Amporn,the need to "LIE" about what is real,and what is not,is always staring me in the eyes of my present state of life.I tell myself,"Yes,I am in control" of my everyday life here in Thailand,but reality is much different than my deceptive view.I am "farang",my wife is Thai.In Thai culture,"Family Trumps" all other matters.I am loved,needed,and in some cases shown respect at times.The fact of life for men like myself,you our way down the scale of "What is important" to your "Thai wife & Family"!I am like many men,getting long in tooth(62),and my body is not what it used too be.I find that not admitting to myself, the ever increasing health issues,is easier than accepting the truth.If finding ones self swimming in ocean full of sharks,it is wise to head to shore.I love my retirement,Thailand,my wife & family.Deception is a strange bed fellow.If i was really honest most of the time,than i would look for safer waters to swim.luckkyybuddha999
